sometimes i think i can speaks out without worrying of anything.
sometimes i think i am brave enough
but most of the time,
i know who am i.
a person that will never give up upon something,
and able to speak out to asking of anything,
but somehow i realize,
i have to admit,
there are people out there are more stronger and power than me.
so i can do nothing.
even i have the rights,
but still i dont have the power.
the persons that i think i might know him and her well,
eventhough we only able get to know each other for about a year,
i respect him and her.
he and she had done so much things for a things that i stand for,
he and she stands besides me no matter what happen,
and he and she made me not to give up.
he and she made me to be strong.
things aren't well between us.
i met her today, we pop each other at cafe a&e, she doesnt smile at me anymore.
she did smile, but i can see there is no sincere anymore.....
just a bit smile, and then she's gone. or runaway. then i run away too.
today, i met him too,
he no longer adressed me,
or maybe he purposely not to address me,
we didnt greet each other like we're supposed to.
i didnt looks at his face, because i know he will make an angry face, or menyampah-kat-aku face.
seems like my heart no longer love them.
i think i have to break the bonds here,
i know this will be my big mistakes to unlove them,
but i cant do it anymore.
i feels betrayed.
they are against me.
they are hate me.
they are trying to prove that i am wrong,
i hate them too.
i hate myself for letting myself to love them,
i dont want to see their faces.
i want to run away from them,
i dont want to looks at their dissappointed faces on me,
i dont want to talk to them anymore.
i dont want to hear anything from them anymore,
i am so upset with myself.
i thought they will still besides me,
i dont asked them to be at which side, or be by my side,
i just want them to be fair enough.
i didnt asked them to get involved in my life things,
but they offered themselves.,
and now they are agaisnt me.
i feels helpless.
the persons that i loved,
the persons that i thought will ever support me,
now are going to prove to me that i am a bad person.
that i am wrong.
i hate myself for hated and loved them,
sorry for going to unlove them.
sorry that im going to breaks the bond.
sorry for everything.